damn i’m feeling really fucking shitty. i feel like i don’t belong anywhere. not home, not riverside, not poland, not anywhere. i miss my friends, i miss my motivation, i miss adventures. i thought i could keep up with all this change but i really just can’t anymore.
Censorship is telling a man he can’t have a steak just because a baby can’t chew it.
I HATE MY UNIVERSITY. I HAVE THE SYSTEM. I HATE THIS COUNTRY. What triggered this sudden burst of angst and hatred you ask? A parking violation. Maybe this may seem like a rash response to a 40 dollar parking violation; however, let me justify myself. I am paying 15,000 dollars a year for tuition- about 5,000 dollars a quarter (not to mention about another 7,000 a year for housing and food and 1,000 dollars for books and supplies). This absurd tuition is derived from a list of unknown fees, one of which includes a $200 fee for our new recreation center which I guarantee I will never make use of. Among these fees is 383 dollars a quarter for a “gold” parking membership which is limited to three parking lots about a 15 min walk from campus. Just yesterday, I arrived to campus 45 minutes before my class started at 10am. Two out of the three parking lots were full so I made my way to lot 30, the largest and farthest of the parking lots. There, I circled around for 65 minutes with about 40 other cars with no luck of finding a parking spot. I was 20 minutes late to my chem class (A class costing me $1,000) and missed a quiz due to insufficient parking I am paying roughly about 1,200 dollars for. Then, today I arrived at about the same time with again, no luck. I was furious until I saw a spot. A spot right before the red curb started and right behind a nicely parked vehicle. Eureka! I took that spot and headed on over to class only to return to that car with a 40 dollar parking violation. Why? Because I was “parked outside of stall markings”. And I asked myself when the fuck will this shit end? How much money is this fucking university going to try and milk out of me? I’m so furious I can’t even write anymore. Fuck you UCR and every other god damn University milking people of their money for a mediocre education. Take my fucking 40 dollars for a “violation” you’ve created to just ring out a few more dollars for absolutely fucking nothing and suck my dick.
So when I was stuck in traffic I was thinking “If I had a bucket list, what would be on it?” so I created what can be considered the start of my bucket list and here it is!
-Own an old, shinny Mustang
-Learn to drive stick shift
-Celebrate Saint Patty’s day in Ireland
-Rent a cabin in the snow with my friends
-Travel the world and visit every singe country on my list
-Learn to play an instrument well enough
-Become a plastic surgeon
-Work at a strip club part time
-Learn to ballroom dance
-Own a pug
-Get a tattoo when I’m old
-Go gas jugging across the country
annnddd that’s what I remember from my list right now but rest assured it will continue to grow.